Final backwards

Right here right now it's never felt more real than this.  So if it's the last scene, make it a bloody scene because when I die I want it to be because someone hates me with every fiber of their being.

I've tried to hold what I can, you should see these scars that are on my hands. Letting go is never easy to do, everyday's a new door that we all must go through. I've learned so much, you're never gone, my friend. I know we'll meet the same shining end.

Forget the who, the what, the when, the where, the why. Did you love something with all of your might?

The colors brighter
The music louder
The stakes higher
The kisses longer
Things that need leaving
Rules there for the breaking
Battles that should be raging
Leave your mark on everyone
Age is death, love is worth it
And hard work, it pays off 

And time is running out

But sometimes things aren't so easy, sometimes you have got to chose between what is simple and what you know is right to prove that, "you can count on me." Was what you meant when you spoke up to write the chapter on who you are in your heart when we were so in love with pretty words like loyalty, and unity, this is you legacy. Where will you be? Where you there or did you run?

I won't carry you in my heart, you are my heart, my everywhere and everything. The walls I'll climb and the wars I'll fight, loved you in the deepest way became the man who I am today. You made me feel just like a hammer in a world lined with nails.

I will fill what is left of my days with the the things that I love the most.

This is my final backward glance, I've never been much good at saying goodbye.

Oh, foolish me. Goodbye.