jueves, 26 de junio de 2014

Play it loud.

I hope you find what you’ve been looking for before I find my way to the door. I hope your pride capsizes from the tears in your eyes and drown in them like so many before. I hope you change yourself for the better and reach the potential we all know we saw. I hope I dig my own grave with the things that I say. Let my actions get my point across. We’re missing something significant in the dialogue, it’s not my problem. I choose to be reclusive amongst the sound. It comes around when I need it most, it’s mostly closer to me than anything, closer than you could ever be. The antidote for everything. I’d give anything to have everything turn out Okay. I’d give half of every day to have the other half turn out half decently apart from all the mistakes we make to break away. I’d give anything, whatever it takes. In the wake of the way things will never be again, it’s too dark to read your face through hard times, so here’s my advice, HERE'S MY ADVICE! Play the fastest record you can find, louder than your stereo will allow. Hotwire your speakers, do whatever you have to. Smash the mirrors in your house. Go home and lock your bedroom door, don’t open it for anything at all. Live every word, scream every song, these four chords could save your...

Go home and lock your bedroom door, don’t open it for anything at all. Live every word, scream every song, these four chords could save your life.

martes, 24 de junio de 2014

domingo, 22 de junio de 2014

Little Bones.

Interesting perspective.

I have the unfortunate luck of finding too many girls in my life and not enough women. It’s not an age thing – some women are younger than girls. The difference is in the way the two types act, think and live their lives.

Women and girls see the world differently. They understand the world differently. And they interact with it differently. Girls are a dime a dozen, but women… women are a scarcity.

This isn’t to say they are non-existent; they’re just difficult to come by. To be fair, they aren’t completely to blame — women and girls have to deal with the same dynamic with men and boys.

As men (not boys), we have to make sure we don’t get stuck dating a girl, it’ll probably be the worst decision of our lives. While it can be difficult to tell the two apart, there are 10 obvious giveaways:

1. Girls like to dress in revealing clothes because they think they look sexy – women know they look sexy no matter what they wear.
Women understand that being provocative isn’t the only way to be sexy. A woman doesn’t have to have her everything hanging out in order to feel sexually appealing. Women are so confident in their own skin that they do not care what they are wearing – they know that they are sexy because they are sexy.

2. Girls expect their men to know how they feel and what they’re thinking – women use their words.
Ladies… men cannot read minds. We wish that we could, it would make things a whole lot easier, but we can’t. Girls believe that their men should understand them so well that they simply know what they are thinking, how they are feeling and what they are “hinting” at.

Unfortunately, most men are not well-versed in picking up such signals. This is the point at which women get frustrated and bitchy while women accept their counterparts’ shortcomings and speak their minds instead.

3. Girls expect you to pay the tab – women are financially independent.
Girls like to be babied and taken care of, maybe they were spoiled growing up. Whatever the reason, girls don’t like whipping out their wallets. A woman, on the other hand, although confident enough to allow her man to pay for her sometimes, also makes a point to cover the bill herself from time to time – for both of them.

A woman likes to remind her man that she only keeps him around because he respects her and treats her well, and that she doesn’t need his cash.

4. Girls go out and get wasted – women can hold their liquor and know their limits.
You know that woman who’s hounding the table at the clubs, waiting to pounce on the next bottle? Of course, you don’t. A woman doesn’t do that. Only girls chug down free booze in order to get hammered – it allows them to make poor decisions.

This isn’t to say that women don’t drink their fair share. They do. But they know their limits and never drink to the point of losing control. Women always stay in control.

5. Girls can’t wait to update their Facebook status to “In a relationship” – women forget they have a Facebook.
Women are just too busy with real life to bother updating their Facebook statuses. They will probably do it eventually when they happen to be on there and remember to do so, but they won’t go running onto the site the second they believe an updated status won’t freak out their new man.

6. Girls watch junk TV – women read.
Some TV is great TV – the rest is pretty much garbage. Women do have their TV shows – some being guilty pleasures – but they also like to spend their time with their nose in books and magazines with substance.

They don’t enjoy filling their lives with meaningless pop-culture garbage that gets regurgitated over the decade. Women like to keep sharp. Girls like to keep occupied.

7. Girls talk about trivial matters – women know how to hold a stimulating conversation.
This is probably one of the biggest differentiating factors. Most girls are awful at holding conversations. They aren’t up-to-date on global affairs. They don’t have any intellectual hobbies or interests. And their opinions aren’t really their own, but are the opinions of others they heard and took as their own. Girls are boring. Women are fascinating.

8. Girls eat salads – women eat whatever the hell they want.
This isn’t to say that women don’t eat salads – some do. But they don’t eat salads in front of men just to go home afterwards and chow down on a pint of ice cream.

Women eat healthily because they respect their bodies. Girls eat healthily to let everyone else know that they are eating healthily. A real woman will sit down and have a burger and fries with you, with no fuss. She knows she can and because she wants to, she will.

9. Girls stick to what they know – women are always searching to widen their horizons.
Women are experienced in life and therefore understand the importance of experiencing life. They do their best to see the world, meet people, explore possibilities. They are passionate and driven. Women take life by the horns. Girls aren’t really sure what their purpose is – they’re hoping to find a man to pick them up and show them the way.

10. Girls need guardians – women don’t need anybody but themselves.
There is nothing, and I mean nothing, sexier than a female who can take care of herself. All females are capable of it, but few actually take care of business. Girls like to coast along in life – always looking for handouts.

Women take what they want and don’t need anyone to help get it. They are strong, confident and independent. Women are the future. Girls are the past.

An open letter to the girl who let the nice guy go.

I’ve seen it happen way too many times: The nice guy loses the girl for being exactly who he is.

What’s even worse is if he’s really the nice guy, he’s going to lose her and say nothing about it. He’ll accept it as something she truly wants and give her his best wishes, as she walks away being everything he could ever want.

On behalf of all the nice guys out there, this is to the girl who walked out on the best thing that ever happened to her:

Dear Girl Who Walked Away,

It’s not like you weren’t aware of what you were getting yourself into. He told you he was nice. He trusted easily and gave you all he could when he could.

The nice guy believes in doing things right. He was there when you needed him to be, and he went out of his way to make sure you knew just how much you could mean to someone.

We live in a generation where we all have to wear masks and play parts to make it through the battlefield of dating in the 21st century. There is no such thing as giving it your all.

We like quotes on Facebook and post things on Instagram stating we want the masochist one day and the romantic the next. We play these games where being available can only happen sometimes, and playing hard-to-get must be our number one priority. Why?

I thought the ultimate goal was to eventually settle down. I mean, what is the point of dating if you have no desire for it to go anywhere? If a one-night stand is what you’re looking for, leave the good guys alone and toy within the levels you lay down.

Save yourself time and energy because the good guy isn’t going to make it easy to just walk away. The good guy cares, so he’ll get his explanation from you even though he knows it’ll be a load of bull.

Every girl says she likes the assh*le because he’s the challenge — the one she must break, train and force to be more than just a douchebag. Have you ever thought, however, maybe you were the girl in need of learning what it means to actually feel again?

You went through something, like we all do, and because of it you changed. It’s normal and heartbreak happens, but the next assh*le didn’t fix what the first one did; he kept it the same or made it worse. His priority was not you and couldn’t be you. So now you’re bitter and closed off from anything remotely more satisfying than a one-night stand.

I won’t deny that the assh*le is fun or that a good time isn’t promised with him, but when it’s all said and done, is it ever more than just a good time? Probably not.

In fact, the assh*le has a charm about him; it’s the charm you justify your pursuit with. You say, “There’s just something about him.” However, it’s probably the same quality that ended up hurting you in the past.

So you tried to push the nice guy away. When he wouldn’t go away, you pushed harder. Still, he didn’t give up and every time you pushed harder, he pulled you in even more.

He ignored your fears and forced you to grow; he fought for your passions when you were too busy writing them off. He forgot your wants and focused on everything you needed. Then you walked away because he was too nice.

He gave you too much of everything you wanted, and life got too easy. You wanted conflict and hardship as if everything else in life did not promise you an endless journey of just that. This is where you failed.

The nice guy has been hurt, too, he just chose to stay nice. He learned that different people were going to provide him different things in life. The nice guy also chose not to let any of it change who he was.

So, he let you walk away and he called it a day. Everyone always says there are plenty of fish in the sea, and he let you go knowing this, even though it hurt.

What you don’t know is that someone else is out there, and she won’t be as foolish you. When you realize all you really want is the nice guy who cares about you too much, it’s going to be too late. Some other girl will be able to see how great he is, and she won’t waste a minute.

So you lost your Ted Mosby and, I promise, to him you were Robin. The nice guys are there to give you a break, a light to something more than the games we identify our generation with.

He may have loved you too soon and it was too crazy and too much, but guys like Mosby don’t happen every day; they happen never. He got you the blue French horn, and he made you feel love when love was no longer a part of your vocabulary. You were now saying “I love you” again and remembering what it felt like.

He was the guy you were supposed to end up with, who makes everything change. I just wish you’d see it before another girl does because at the end of the day, everyone, including the nice guy you don’t deserve, is rooting only for you.

Sincerely, The Girl Who Was Too Late.

lunes, 16 de junio de 2014

jueves, 12 de junio de 2014

Que me sé sus cicatrices y el sitio que le tienes que tocar para conseguir que se ría. Que conozco su voz en formato susurro, en formato gemido y en formato secreto. Pero además la he visto seria, ser ella misma, y en serio que eso no se puede escribir en un poema. Que no sabes lo que sentía cuando se revolvía en la cama, y qué fácil parece a veces enamorarse. Ya sé de sobra que tiene esa sonrisa y esas maneras y todo el remolino que forma en cada paso de gesto que da. Todo eso de que ella puede llegar a ser ese puto único motivo de seguir vivo y a la mierda con la autodestrucción... Todo eso de que los besos de ciertas bocas saben mejor es un cuento que me sé desde el día que me dio dos besos y me dijo su nombre. No sabes lo que es despertarte y que ella se retuerza y bostece, luego te abrace, y luego no sepas cómo deshacerte de todo el mundo. Que no sólo conocía su última pesadilla, también las mil anteriores, y yo sí que no tenia cojones a decirle que no a nada, porque tengo más deudas con su espalda de las que nadie tendrá jamás con la luna (y mira que hay tontos enamorados en este mundo). La he visto formar un charco de arena rompiendo todos los relojes que le puso el camino, y la he visto hacer la competencia a cualquier amanecer por la ventana. No me hablen de paisajes si no han visto su cuerpo.

¿Qué voy a enseñarle a unos ojos que no ven?

Una sonrisa y un recuerdo me bastará por un tiempo pero la pregunta es, ¿hasta cuando?..

Quiero volverte a ver, que el destino nos vuelva a juntar.. pero ya nada volverá a ser como antes, es más, es que nunca será como antes, ni se acercara a lo que fuimos.. quizá solo te vea en fechas señaladas o quizá nunca mas, no sé que me duele más si tu sonrisa o tu indiferencia hacía mi... asumo que me enamore de un imposible, el cual me ve sin observarme, me roza sin tocarme, se expresa y no me habla... como olvidar tu sonrisa, tu mirada y como olvidar que rezaba para que no te marcharas. Y aunque tu no lo sepas.. nos dijimos tanto.. fue una relación tan adictiva como la heroína, pero tengo el alivio de que en mis sueños te puedo ver. Nunca pensé que me enamoraría de ti, nunca lo planee llegaste para innovar sensaciones que el abandono había escondido, me recordaste que existe el amor. También recuerdo mis días de lágrimas, los últimos días que estabas aquí, pero fue en vano, por que te fuiste y tras cuatro meses te vi, y sentía que el corazón se me salia por la boca, que tenía ganas de llorar, que no sabia que hacer.. pero tu sonrisa fue lo que colmo mi felicidad, no puede dejar caer unas lágrimas sin que me vieras en el autobús, quien lo iba a decir que esa tarde por Valencia en soledad me recompensaría con tu presencia, el verte me dio fuerzas para no seguir haciendo lo que hacía hasta un tiempo, y como dicen, las heridas duelen o dejan cicatriz, tú... me duele el no tenerte y una cicatriz el daño que me hiciste sin quererlo, y es que ya no quiero más sonrisas sin latido... me engañe durante meses para seguir viviendo, pero realmente vivo una mentira en la que solo yo sé la verdad, que a veces esa mentira es la única razón por la que sonrió, te hecho de menos sabes? Pero mi vida sigue, lejos de ti, no es lo que quise, aunque te quiera mas que nada en el mundo, por fin tengo a alguien que me quiere por lo que soy (yo), y aunque tú me hayas marcado para toda la vida, también espero vivir mi propia historia con alguien, no solo.. en fin.. que necesito volverte a ver, y que te tengo en mi cabeza todos los días y a todas horas, pero es lo que ahí...

jueves, 5 de junio de 2014

She's never gonna look up to me. Ever.

Creo que es el momento de cerrar una página de mi vida, y no porque quiera hacerlo, si no porque ya no puedo seguir sintiéndome como me siento. Solo quiero escribir una ultima cosa y en el idioma que hace que no me sienta ridículo a la hora de leerlo (suena estúpido eh, haha)

This is the story of the first and last time I ever fell in love. And of the beautiful, complicated, fascinating woman who inhabits my soul. Whether we're together or apart, you will always be the woman of my life. If I had the choice of hanging out with anyone in the entire world or sitting at home with you eating pizza watching a crappy TV show, I'd choose you every time. The only man I will ever envy is the man who wins your heart, and I will always believe it was my destiny to be that man. I never really believed I would find somebody that I love as much as you. If we never see each other again, and you're out walking one day and you feel a certain presence beside you... that will be me... loving you... wherever I am.
Now I write 10 rules for the man who wins your heart:

1. Don't ask her to be feminine 2. Drink Coke instead of Juice 3. If she hits you, act like it hurts. If it hurts, act like it doesn't 4. On your 100th day together, give her a rose 5. Make sure you learn karate 6. Be prepared to go to prison sometimes 7. If she says she'll kill you, don't take it lightly 8. If her feet hurt, exchange shoes with her 9. She likes to write. Encourage her 10. Love her more than anything in the whole world.

See ya my little animal disaster. Your favourite apple.

lunes, 2 de junio de 2014

Alive.

Wannabe (Ohhh)
Millionaire
Fuck!
I got something exploding inside of my head
I will try to forget everything that you said

Royalty (Ohhh)
Counterfeit
Whore!
I will try to forget everything that you said
I got something exploding inside of my head

Alive
Alive or dead
Alive

Company (Ohhh)
Wait for it...
Go!

I got all that I wanted in life
I got something you cannot buy
I got all that I wanted in life
I just need a break
I just need a break

I got something exploding inside of my head
I will try to forget everything that you said

Alive
Alive or dead
Alive

(Alive) Lest we forget
(Alive) It's now or never
(Alive) Will burn again
(Alive) Will burn forever
I'm drowning
It's over
We're growing
Unstable
Unable
To give in
Keep dreaming
Keep living

With your love I can feel more than anyone
In your heart I can see more than anyone
With your love I can feel more than anyone

I'm falling
Hungover
The world is
Unstable
Ungrateful
To fit in
I love you
But I'm sinking

Just like always...
Like always
Just like always...
Like always

With your love I can feel more than anyone
In your heart I can see more than anyone
With your love I can feel more than anyone

So hold on to it tight